I wonder if we are all just bags of meat wandering around not knowing what we are doing. I also realize we are intelligent beings capable of observation and what we are willing to put up with. The thing I am hooked on is forgiveness. People are reactionary and unskilled. I am, too. If someone hurts your feelings, that means you have to pick your battles. Do you give a shit enough to say something? Or do you forgive them for being insensitive? They obviously have not thought about what they have said. If you care enough about yourself and the person talking to you, be kind and think about what you have to say to get them to "get it". Otherwise, cold cock a mother fucker (verbally)?

I went to a dinner party a few weeks ago and was treated like gold. The food was amazing, the conversation stimulating, it was kind of historical for me. I have yet to call the host and thank him for this experience. I guess I'm just a bag of meat. I hope he forgives me for that.

Well, what the hell is going on?

Considering all the family obligations and personal issues with family and friends, Christmas can be a bust. But how awesome the intensity! All the recipes we taste, the wonder of what people think you like, and the strange patterns people fall into during the holidays. It's brutal and worth looking into.

Happy New Year and to embracing the past and future.